My Grandad passed away when I was 8 this was my first real encounter with death. I did not react to the news immediately though. It was a couple of weeks later on the day of his funeral when everything finally hit me. The moment I saw his casket pulling up the hearse to my estate I completely lost the plot. I was young and I didn’t really understand it all, but since then I have encountered 5 more close deaths 3 out of that 5, unfortunately, were murders.
Each encounter was negative and somewhat traumatic and I have not had anything positive to say where death was concerned. I just did not understand why people you love had to die. It is one of the most painful things in life to experience and I just didn’t think it was fair, but I have come to know that most things in life are not fair. As time has gone on my mindset towards death has somewhat changed and I have reached the following conclusions.
The only thing that is promised to us in this life-time is death.
It is written.
One can not cheat it nor can one escape
because truth be told when it is your time, it is your time.
It is kind of scary when you think about it because neither you or I know when it will be our time to leave to go. It does blow my mind that we can have so many dreams for our lives but the only thing that is guaranteed to all of us is death. This is a universal truth that not even I am ready for because it is one heaven pill to swallow,.
Dying is a part of the circle of life because with every end comes a new beautiful beginning. Although it hurts like hell there is always something beautiful to be found on the other side of it. Transitioning is apart of life and at some point in life we all have to go through it. At one point in time, I used to think that death was a mistake like maybe God got it wrong. But I have been alive long enough to know that God makes no mistakes. There is a time to be born and there is a time to die and even in death, there is something for everyone to learn.
The sudden death of supermodel Kim Porter really got me thinking. If you are not a fan of hip-hop music you probably won’t be too familiar with that is. Kim Porter was a former supermodel, hip-hop royalty, a Mother of 4, 3 of which she shared with music mogul Sean ‘P Diddy’ Combs. The news shocked me to my core, I am a fan of both and I have kept up with them and their kids on the socials for years. I felt so sad by the news my heart actually sank. The last celebrity death that shocked me in this way was Whitney Houston’s. If you follow me on Twitter you probably have seen me professing my love her for on a regular basis.
For me, there was something different about the news of Kim Porters passing that really it made me stop and really reflect. I think I probably read every tribute for her on Instagram from her family and friends and the way they have spoken about her truly humbled me. I know when people die, everybody has something amazing to say about them. Reading those tributes it was clear to me that Kim had a profound impact on the lives that she touched. All of the tributes were so touching and some even brought me to tears.
I was so moved to the point where it made me start to question myself and i had to ask myself whether I am living abundantly?. Am I walking in love and light? Am I living gracefully? Am I compassionate enough? Am I being Kind? Am I forgiving wholeheartedly? Am I being selfless? Am I holding on to my past? Am I walking in my God-given purpose? I am a very reflective person in general but this line of questioning really opened me up to myself.
“The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living”
Marcus Tullius Cicero
It was so weird way because I felt like God gave me an unusual wake-up call. It left me no other choice but to really evaluate myself from the inside out. I realised that what I do with my life whilst I am still alive and how I made people feel is what matters the most, above everything else. It is funny how death can just put things into perspective. It was an awakening that I didn’t even know that I needed and I am glad it shifted my perspective on life and the way I will live it going forward. I know you are probably thinking Jenna this is some heavy stuff and yes it is. But I just wanted to share this because it really got me thinking about my own life. As crazy as this sounds there are so many valuable life lessons that can be learned through death.
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This post was a lot, so of course, you know that I have to end it with a prayer, scroll down to read below.
Prayer: Dear God, thank you for blessing us with the greatest blessing above all which is the gift of life. In saying that Lord, I know that we are not created to live forever, but we were created to live a fulfilling and abundant life that showcases all of your glory. I give you thanks and praise for the divine assignment over the life of myself and my readers. God, I kindly ask of you that none of us will leave this earth before our time. May the purpose of our true existence be manifested in its full form. Keep us all away from all harm and evil, but help us to walk in love, peace and real happiness.
Lots of love